The Obstacles in Life

I know that we all have different obstacles in life and I wanted to share mine. My name is Sarah and I've been married to my hubby Dylan for 6 years. We have together an adorable girl named Rebekah who is 22 months old.

Dylan and I have had our share of problems in life. We got married "young" to start a family. I was 20 when we got married and Dylan was 22. But God had other plans for us. We were told it was medically impossible for us to have children. Dylan had varicose veins in his scrotum that needed to be surgically removed and shortly after that they realized that my prolactin levels were elevated, so I was put on Bromocriptine. The fertility doctor and our family doctor kept telling us that we were young and that we still had time...blah blah blah...I don't care how old you are a person going thru this ordeal does NOT want to be hearing that.

After hearing that we thought that our next option was adoption. So we had a 3 hour class, 1 day a week for 6 weeks for parent prep in April 2004. We had done all the necessary steps to get this adoption running and then we had to wait for our home evaluation which apparently there was a shortage of these workers around here and thus the wait. We were still waiting when we realized that we were pregnant that fall. I was due with Rebekah in June, 2005! Our prayers were answered!

In January 2006, our world was rocked yet again. I had a miscarriage. I was 6 1/2 weeks pregnant and I was devastated. Friends of ours, who had a son 2 weeks before our daughter, was going to have another child a month before this last one should have been born. And since January 2006, nothing. Dylan's single sisters both could have children and have no problems with infertility. It tore my heart. We have decided that maybe we should try to adopt again. I this time around am a little nervous about it. What happens if Rebekah asks questions? I've also heard so many negative adoptions experiences and I'm quite upset by that too. What happens if that child that we adopt, turns its back on us and resents us and causes us more grief in the future? I am at a loss and not sure what to do on that issue any more.

Then there's the topic of weight loss. When I was married I weighed 145 lbs and when I realized I was first pregnant with Rebekah I was 205lbs. After having her and breastfeeding I managed to keep and get some weight off but after I quit breastfeeding I gained. BIG TIME. My heaviest that I was at after Rebekah has been 225 lbs(That was what I was at full term with her!) Currently, I am 213.5 lbs...(I hesitate to say that but I don't know you and I don't plan on posting pictures of me for awhile:)

So I hope that you will enjoy and maybe help me learn from my obstacles in life that have been placed before me.