SHH!!!!

Don't tell anyone! I'm pregnant! I haven't told anyone else but you folks reading! I did home pregnancy tests on both Sunday and today (Monday) and both are very faint lines.

At first, I was scared. Scared only because Trevor and this next baby will not even be 2 years apart. (Unlike my Rebekah and Trevor, who are 3 years apart.) and also for my own selfish reasons and that would be referring to my weight.

When I first found out I was pregnant with Rebekah, I was 205lbs,
when I first found out I was pregnant with Trevor, I was 210lbs,
and now with this one I'm currently, 215lbs. This does make me nervous because with my daughter, I gained 24lbs throughout the pregnancy and
with my son, I gained 25lbs. I really don't want to gain that much with this pregnancy. I was looking and for obese women, (let's face it that's me), I should only be gaining 15lbs or so.

I have decided, that I'm going to continue on Herbalife. I want what is best for my child and I will discuss this with my family dr also at the 1st appointment (which I have not booked yet)

We asked our Rebekah, if she wanted a boy or a girl, just hypothetically one day a couple of weeks ago and she said point blankly..."I don't want a baby brother or baby sister, I just want Trevor!" I must admit this hurt. Does this mean that I count on her to do too much things for me? It's not like she has a chore at all! She's 4! Besides the odd, pick this up, put that away, put this in the sink. etc. (you get the idea) We have brought it up again and told her that it wasn't her or our decision but ultimately God's alone. She did say, "Ok" after that. For that I'm thankful! I don't want her to disown the new baby! Any advise in this regard?

Can't wait for the reno's to be done now! ;-)

Busy

It's been pretty busy around here.

Since the last post, I picked up 2 extra kids to baby-sit 3 days a week. (Temporarily- THANK GOODNESS!) They have extremely short attention spans and I will tell you about some of their, (what I thought,) were/are some bad habits that they have and bring in. ;-( (I spoke with another friend who is baby sitting them the other days of the week and she is having the same concern that I have with them and she's thinking of quitting!)...again, more details to come...will someone please remind me?

Then there is the fact that we are doing home renovations. (Why, when you say that, do people automatic think that you are pregnant?! This really is an unfair assumption! No, I'm not pregnant!) Currently, Rebekah is sleeping in the guest bedroom. My parents take turns in visiting me and my other 2 siblings and their families in this great Province, and so we would like to have an actual room for them to sleep in and a place that we can get Rebekah settled into and call her own. I'm getting excited to decorate a room that will best suit her. But I also don't want it too childish that she outgrows it too soon either. Yes, I'm saying "No!" to Dora the Explorer and Barbie or Cinderella theme. (Even if she has one set of Cinderella bedding already...I know that eventually she will outgrow this and then what!) I was thinking along the lines of butterflies and flowers...we will have to see...the room is just framed right now! Our next dilemna, that Dylan and his friend, has suggested that Rebekah stay in her current room (which has a LARGE closet, perfect for a teenager) and the guest room be the new room. I don't know yet...I'm thinking no to this as well but maybe someone else could give me advise? (Rebekah's now room is under the kitchen and her new room is under Trevor's and part of our room.) Please let me know what you think and if you could let me know why you think that.) Also, does anyone know where I might be able to find butterfly and flower bedding? I know that Wal-Mart used to sell them but I can't find them there anymore! and I've had no success in any other store unless I go with a theme.)

With regards to the weight loss area...It's going, SLOWLY! If I am careful with my calorie intake that is! I have been loosing inches off my waist and hips but I don't see a significant loss in weight just yet. I have told the distribut*r that we are wanting and trying to get pregnant and she has assured me that this is safe for both me and the future fetus/baby. My current weight is 216.5lbs this morning.

Dylan and I went out with our friends the other night for supper and then a trip to Wal-Mart. Oh, we really MUST do this again! We had such a great time with the friends that we haven't seen in awhile because they have been so busy. Next time we would like to go just Dylan and myself and maybe go for dinner and a movie. Rebekah LOVED the babysitter and actually asked the next day if she was coming over! (She didn't cry like she did when Dylan's mom babysat in July!) We had this babysitter before but usually only for Bible Studies and near the end of the "season", either one of us 4 was sick or Dylan had to work late or there was a snow storm. So it was nice to have her come back and babysit! We really don't get out much without the children. I guess our motto was that we had tried and cried for years to have children, why should we "pawn" them off? But let me tell you, after that night, I really realized that it was for getting to know your spouse again and what's been going on in this house/family. And might I add with NO interruptions!That's enough of my rambling for one day!

Till next time!

Cheers!

...I'm terrible at updating...

I will update as soon as I can on the Herbalife and what's been going on in our lives. I hope that I'm not keeping to many people in suspence!
Cheers, Danna