SHH!!!!

Don't tell anyone! I'm pregnant! I haven't told anyone else but you folks reading! I did home pregnancy tests on both Sunday and today (Monday) and both are very faint lines.

At first, I was scared. Scared only because Trevor and this next baby will not even be 2 years apart. (Unlike my Rebekah and Trevor, who are 3 years apart.) and also for my own selfish reasons and that would be referring to my weight.

When I first found out I was pregnant with Rebekah, I was 205lbs,
when I first found out I was pregnant with Trevor, I was 210lbs,
and now with this one I'm currently, 215lbs. This does make me nervous because with my daughter, I gained 24lbs throughout the pregnancy and
with my son, I gained 25lbs. I really don't want to gain that much with this pregnancy. I was looking and for obese women, (let's face it that's me), I should only be gaining 15lbs or so.

I have decided, that I'm going to continue on Herbalife. I want what is best for my child and I will discuss this with my family dr also at the 1st appointment (which I have not booked yet)

We asked our Rebekah, if she wanted a boy or a girl, just hypothetically one day a couple of weeks ago and she said point blankly..."I don't want a baby brother or baby sister, I just want Trevor!" I must admit this hurt. Does this mean that I count on her to do too much things for me? It's not like she has a chore at all! She's 4! Besides the odd, pick this up, put that away, put this in the sink. etc. (you get the idea) We have brought it up again and told her that it wasn't her or our decision but ultimately God's alone. She did say, "Ok" after that. For that I'm thankful! I don't want her to disown the new baby! Any advise in this regard?

Can't wait for the reno's to be done now! ;-)